历史重来。。

在我们成为好朋友的那一天。。

你让我相信这世上还有Friendship Forever。。

可是日子久了。。

一切开始变了。。

是因为你喜新厌旧的习惯吗。。？

还是不喜欢约束的感觉。。？

我是个不懂表达自己感觉的人。。

更不懂得向别人说心事。。

唯一可以做的是多关心身边的朋友。。

希望好朋友能心灵相通。。

自动明白我。。

可是这一切并不是这样的。。

原来关心别人却只会带给人麻烦。。

原来在曾经何时。。你不再需要我这个好朋友。。

原来我只是个“垃圾”。。

原来友谊的定义是这样的。。

原来这世上要找个知心朋友是这么难的。。

原来这世上是没有Friendship Forever的。。

I'm out of ur list..

Dunno since when.. U start nt 2 talk to me.. start 2 ignore me.. I dunno wat happen to both of us.. But dis shouldn't happen between best friend, rite..? But yet no answer.. Mayb u dunn like ppl control, but u think i able 2 control u..? NO & NEVER.. What is in ur mind..? I dunno.. I ask u, wat happen 2 us.. U just say 'i just dun like to talk jek'.. But 4 sure.. dat's nt de answer.. But yet i stil believe u even i'm out of ur Friendster list.. Dat day go Amcorp.. U ask me wan2 go anot, i though is a good chance 2 make our friendship beta, but in de end.. U n Chin walk n talk 2gather.. Dat show's dat u nt dun like 2 talk.. Is u r ignoring me.. Fine.. I dunn wan2 say anythg seen u 'hate' me so much.. on thus, i really cant concentrate study coz it really sakit hati 2 c our friendship is ruin.. So once agn, i ask u, wat happen 2 us.. U say u wan2 find back last time ge u.. Isit really needed 2 find back last time ge u..? U noe y u change.. Coz of kah.. Mayb.. If i able 2 tel u, i just wanna say, pls dunn find back last time ge u, wat had pass is pass.. C infront n move 4wards.. U hv so much fren can support n help u.. B urself n live without her.. U wan me 2 believe u n gv u some time.. K fine.. I'll believe n i'll gv time.. But 2day at Sunway.. I can c dat.. Seriously.. I'm NO LONGER UR BEST FREN.. Ignoring me n dunn wanna talk vif me is ur choice.. Fine.. I'll take times 2 try 2 let go dis best fren.. Mayb if i ever can do so.. Take carez my fren.. Hope u can move on n Gambateh.. If 1 day u nd me back.. I'll stil b here.......

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i dunno wat had happen.. seem like everythg is changing.. Am i doing de wrong thg agn..? i dunno.. Too care a psn.. Dat shall i x do agn.. I keep on remining myself.. But yet dis is me.. dis is de thg i cant change.. i dunno wat shall i do.. i noe some ppl cant stand ppl control or mumbeling them.. Haiz.. Try try try my very de best 2 change.. i dunn wan de history repeat agn.................

I lost my smile.. Totally lost.. Some where around.. Some time around.. I wish i can get it back..

190809_2nd SCE

2day is my 2nd SCE after come back from my semester break. Walau eh!! 2 day really very busy. Dunn even hv time 2 walk around n c other room patients. I'm in room 3 dis time vif Pathma, Sharvin n Suet Yee. 2day v do toilet bath 4 a 96 yrs old Popo.. She's half stroke patient. The left part of her body cant move edi.. So v try 2 help her bath in de toilet. She BO at de toilet after Senior Leela remove de pail below de wheel chair. Den v gotta wash n clean de toilet too. Popo very guai.. She hear wat is say n cooperate vif me. So good!! ^_^ After bath, v wash her hair too. N Suet Yee help Popo do mouth care. Den CI somemore ask v all feed Popo eat.. OMG!! v nt yet learn feeding la.. Luckily it's not so hard 4 me 2 feed Popo. She eat slowly n i feed slowly.. Hehe.. ^_^ CI some put medicine on her food so dat she can eat de medicine. When she heard eat medicine can go out ward faster, she fast fast eat de medicine. So cute la de Popo.. But i noe she wan2 go out de ward faster.. Later i'm going 2 visit her.. Hope she can get well soon.. ^_^

060809_belated blog of my 1st SCE

2day is my 1st SCE(supervised clinical experience). I' going 2 Melor Ward n hv my practical there.. Melor Ward has 5 rooms and all of them is 4 beded room. I'm divided 2 room 6. There are oly 2 patients inside dat ward. Both r Indian guy. Thy can do their daily activities, so there's not much thg i can do or help them.. I just able 2 change their bed sheet n clean their thg. I try to communicate with them. 1 of them r friendly n 1 of them r kinda silent. So v just able 2 talk 4 awhile. After dat, v walk 2 other room n observe other patients. In room 1 gt 1 hansome guy. When i saw his smile, is kinda sweer.. Hehe.. ^_^ Around 9 somethg, CI come n tel us go HDU 4 mouth care coz our job is too little. V r so nervous dat v'll make mistake. Luckily de HDU CI is very kind n give us chance since dat v r de 1st time 2 do it. De Popo is 90++ old lady. She cant swallow food, abit unconsious n nd machines 4 some function 4 her body. When v start 2 do de mouth care, de Popo refuse 2 open her mouth. But de CI talk loudly 2 dat Popo n ask her open her mouth. Some more use spatula 2 paksa her 2 open her mouth. So scary n i feel like wanna cry edi.. Haiz.. I noe i'm nt tough enough 2 face those 残忍thg.. I sure cry.. Haiz.. I'll try 2 b tough.. en.. I'll try..

Stupid Idiot Exam!!

Ishh..

STupid exam~!!#@*@#@~

Just 1 month here jau gotta exam edi..

Hate la!!!!

Haiz..

I dunn wanna study..

OMG!!!

1 month..

jau gotta read so many chapter..

Is like reading de form 4 n form 5 bio book..

die la me..

so much!!

n yet nothg goes into my head!!!!!!

haiz..

some1..

pls help me................

...?

weird weird..

friendship problem..

haiz..

y v seldom talk dis few days..?

y i go 2 her room n yet she's always busy vif her phone..?

din she realise i'm there..?

dat's y i dis few day dunn wanna go there..

i dunno wat's she thinking..

i dunno wat should i do..

shall i let it b..?

i dunno..

haiz..

no answer 4 my question agn...........

2day Dr Elaine said..

v must share our thg 2 other..

yet dis is de point dat i seldom do..

i dunno y..

i already get used vif it by alone..

i'll share..

but nt everythg..

is dis secreatif character..?
i dunno also..@_@

i'll try 2 change..

i'll try my best 2 change..